Beth, Thinking Out Loud

Thinking Out Loud – On Happiness

I was at an event the other night and saw a friend I hadn’t seen in person for awhile. We chatted for a bit and as she was leaving she gave me a hug and said “by the way, you look good.” Naturally I thanked her and didn’t think much of it until I got home that night.

I took a look at myself in the mirror. Do you ever stop and do that? Like truly look at yourself? And I saw that yes, my hair looked good, my makeup still looked surprisingly good for how late in the day it was, and I had a cute outfit on. But you know what I saw as I truly looked at myself? A spark in my eyes and smile wrinkles. I saw happiness.

I’m not saying that I haven’t been happy before now, but I think lately I’ve really reached a good place. And the first rule of Good Place Club is don’t talk about Good Place Club in case you jinx it right? But for reals, I’m relaxed and feeling this strange peace I don’t think I’ve had for quite some time.

I haven’t shared everything and maybe never will, but if you’ve been reading awhile you’ve readΒ how in the first couple of years after having Ollie there was a lot of change and transition in my life beyond just adjusting to parenthood. Things went down that I never expected to happen and I most definitely came out the other side, but I think the recovery period from some of it was a lot longer than I initially realized. And I think I’m finally getting to that point of being overΒ most all of it.

In one of Kesha’s new releases (which OMG can we talk about this new album of hers? It is fan-freaking-tastic and the first album in awhile that’s making me want to buy a physical CD) called “Learn to Let Go” there’s a great line that says “My happy ending is up to me.” Somehow I think I finally figured that out. And what a wonderful feeling that is.

When my friend told me I looked good the other night I’m pretty sure she wasn’t referring to all this deep stuff I just mentioned, but she woke me up to it. I do look good. I feel good (aside from the summer cold from hell my child shared with me that is!) and I’m going to own that shit. My happy ending is up to me. And happiness looks good on me.

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21 thoughts on “Thinking Out Loud – On Happiness”

  1. This post – yes!!! Has all the feels! Finding that happy feeling and realizing you are in a great place is such an awesome feeling! I love ya!!!
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  2. When I visit home and I run into people I once knew, I sometimes think “wow, they got old” or “wow, they let themselves go” or something along the lines…and sometimes I also think “wow, they look good!”… it’s a first impression you get when you see someone that you remember a certain way after a long time.

    I think the compliment that your friend gave you was genuine and meant to let you know that she was happy to see you so happy! I think your self-reflection that followed only shows that sometimes we have to pay attention to the little things that shape our every day!
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  3. Oh, my goodness.. I can’t even begin to tell you how happy this post makes me. I’m literally covered in goosebumps πŸ™‚ Happiness is contagious and it’s a beautiful look on you, my sweet friend. Own it. I totally love Kesha and would love to listen to this new album of hers. I used to pump her previous one in my car and scream at the highest volumes because that’s what her music does to me sometimes and I’m not ashamed πŸ™‚

    XOXO
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  4. Oh yes Beth, it is so good to be in your happy place. I also know how we feel it is a jinx if we talk about it but I think it is ok to acknowledge it. We need to share with others that it does exist and isn’t some rare unknown event. I am so happy for you! I could read the peace that you have in this piece.
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    1. Thank you Sheryl! I kind of thought the same thing, there is so much doom and gloom out there sometimes that I felt sharing my good vibes certainly couldn’t hurt! It took me time to get to this place and there’s no shame in being proud of it!
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  5. I think you do look fantastic, and I think that when you feel good on the inside it does show up on the outside. I’m so glad that you’re in a good place right now too. I feel like this year has been filled with a lot of soul-searching and personal growth for me, and I also feel like I’m in a good place too, most of the time. I still have some rough patches that I think come with the territory of being a mom to 2 young kiddos. πŸ™‚
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